Me. My Life. And Crap.



Wednesday, January 14, 2009 @ 11:39 PM: Most Frustrating day of 2009!! So far...
Well today was really not one of the best days.
I cant say this morning went badly, just that it was rather annoying.


I had to get out of bed at 9am this morning, being pestered by my sister because we had to head over to my mom's shop by 10am becoz my dad had 2 go out ==''

So, we went over and I hung out around there till almost noon, then i went 2 take a bus 2 college.
The weather was really hot then and I kena stomach ache sumore.
The chicken rice had too much oil this time...
Stupid.


Then, when I got to college, it was smooth going for a little while.
But mostly, it was a bit of a drag.

It wasn't that the class was uninteresting..
It was just that I've already studied some of the parts that we were learning today back at Tar College.
I was so hoping for something more new or fun!!!

But, it didn't come.
Though I guess that was just me being impatient.



Then, when class was over, I took 2 buses back to my mom's shop again where she picked me up and I drived us home.

It was right before the new season of American Idol started that me and my mom turned something small, into a big matter.
Then, we argued for awhile before doing our own things in silence.

I honestly couldnt understand why I was so frustrated today.
As a matter of fact, these past FEW days!!!


Seriously, it was really just me telling my mom that I wish my bro could do his tuition in a tuition center instead of doing it at home where he wasted all our precious resting time 2 listen to music or watch tv.

But then, she got all "Tuition is not a waste of time! Its for blah blah blah blah blah.... U all always get to watch tv and play computer 1 ma... tht 1 even more waste of time ma..."
Or something like that.

Then I started to defend myself and tell her that not everything that she doesn't like is a waste of time... Then things started to turn into a self-defensive situation...

She kept trying 2 convince me she was right, I convinced her I was right... ARGHHH!!!

Sigh.

I seriously am so freakin frustrated now!!!

But ofcoz, after awhile, not more than 20mins, me n my mom got back to talking terms and then continued to joke abit when watching American Idol.

We're like that.
Thats the good thing about us.
We never hold a grudge for more than awhile.

Though, I still wish we didn't have to argue.


But then later on that night, my dad suddenly (I forgot wht started it..) told my mom he dun hv enuf money edi.
N then he kept bringing up the money issues and all that crap, n stuff about the electric bill.

He asked my mom to borrow some money from my grandma 1st to pay the electric bills.
Then he looked at me and asked me if I had rm100..
Like I could say no.... ==''


Seriously, and he had the money but he wanted 2 return the money 2 other ppl 1st tht he had 2 pay back.
I was thinking to myself, "Isn't helping the family 1st more important than other ppl thinking ur not trustworthy?"

I mean, u can barely help urself but u want ppl to look at u n think ur like this gud person?!
But u dun mind borrowing money from ur wife's mother and ur son?
Borrowing money from Old Women and Children!!

So mature... ZZzZzz....


I seriously dunno wat 2 say about him anymore.
And my mom just told me that we had to cancel off Astro's Dynasty and Learning channels to cut down on monthly usage.
I said okay, but I wish she would've cut down the Sports and News channel as well!!

That stupid ass (dad) always also like tht...
Sacrifice the kids things 1st like our Cartoon channel, or our Movies channel...
But whn we say get rid of his channel, he yell and say we're selfish.

I reli feel like grabbing a chair and ramming it into his ribs sometimes.
But that he would probably just find someway to make our lives more miserable for it..


ARGHHH!!!


Haiz.
N sumore, 2day's chemistry group meeting was a failure as well.
We were supposed to meet on MSN to discuss our assignment but only 3/5 including me, was online.

Oh well...
Have to postpone it to tomorrow night.


I seriously dunno what else to say or do.
I'm so frustrated these days that I have even questioned myself as to what am I doing now.
Why am I studying? I dun even noe wht I wanna be yet.
So why am I studying? Shud I come out N work???
No, I shouldn't. Becoz I reli reli still hate working life now so I'd probably end up quitting my job again.
Then what AM i doing with my life now?
Wasting it???
Why the bloody hell am I even thinking about all this???!

Crap! What is wrong with me??!!


Haizzzzz..... You know, I'm just gonna try n forget about today and go and grab a book to read n listen to music, or something.
I nid 2 get myself back together in one piece.

Today is the 1st frustrating day I have in 2009!!!
Hopefully, nothing will beat this day and become another even more frustrating day...
I seriously don't want another relapse of last year's Jan-July!!!!

Those was the worst parts of my life.
U guys probably dun noe much about it since i only started blogging since August after I joined SeGi College.
Well, its a good thing too.


Anyway, I'm gonna head off to reading that book I mentioned.
Maybe I'll read P.S I Love You.

A good mushy romance novel is probably what I need now 2 quell my frustration.
I think. xD


G'Nite Guys n Gals!!

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