Me. My Life. And Crap.



Saturday, August 9, 2008 @ 12:38 AM: Year 2008 Recap (January - March)
Well, I continued to work in the Feng Shui shop as usual after reading that horoscope forecast book. But things seemed to turn from Fun-times-after-SPM-is-finally-over to Hell-on-earth-with-the-arrival-of-the-new-year!! I mean, it was a pretty obvious turn of scenery, like the bombing of Hiroshima all over again!! Once it hit the 1st of January, ofcourse.

As hectic as life was working 8 hours a day, going for my Driving Undang classes and test, balancing my life with my friends -that it seems are all thats left- by spending some time with them, and scheming on ways to evade the ever fearful National Service, my dad manages to get me and fit in at least 2-3 hours every night talking about my future, college, and financial status. Talk about your intense pressure!! Can you say... STRESS?!!!!

Well, for the whole of January, February, and part of March, i spent hours at night after coming back from work exhausted, "debating" (just to put it in a nice way) with my dad about how I don't want to go for business studies. He doesn't say it directly but I know his style. Until today he is still hinting me abt stuff like MBA. But lets stay focus back in the past for now shall we. So I keep trying to convince him that what I truly want is Psychology. But he keeps fighting back, saying that it isn't a very good subject to take up because in Malaysia, there's isn't much demand at all and he keeps trying to get me to dig up info for him. To convince him. At times, when I feel like I can't handle him anymore, I let my mom deal with him while I excuse myself into the bathroom for almost half an hour before I reappear. I don't know if anyone who's reading this can understand how I feel, but all I can say is that no one should deserve going through such hell.

Once I've finally shut him up about the course choice, and he grudgingly says OK to the Psychology, it was time to talk College. It was here that sprouted anotehr problem. Here, I would say I wanna study in the colleges that were more famous for their Psychology course. In KL, I'm pretty sure everyone is familiar with the HELP College. I had my eyes on it since I figured I wanted to study Psychology. Ofcourse, my 1st choice would have been to study abroad, but that was just merely a foolish dream of a 16 year old boy, thinking life was made. It was here that my dad told me that I could study Psychology, but not in HELP because of our financial status. So after discussing between colleges and him giving me the limitations I would have to make when choosing them, I finally realised that he wasn't really giving me much of a choice at all! I had not muc choice except TARC reli. It was the cheapest, but it didn't have a direct path to Psychology, instead requiring me to take 2 years of Diploma in Counselling before going for 2 more years of Advanced Diploma in Psychology. Grudgingly as well, I gave in after his constant attacks towards my low mental vitality and my mom's constant request that I give in a little instead of taking everything. I told her that when it comes to my future, I had no choice and deserved as well to be a little selfish. But in the end, yeah. I gave in. I was going to study at TARC for a Diploma in Counselling after i come back from NS.

I went to register at TARC for the course and because of my failure to ditch NS, i went with a heavy heart, to KPP (Kem Puncak Permai, Tondong, Bau, Sarawak) on the 17th, or was it 18th, of March.